Spent the day at the wedding of my original buddy and partner-in-crime. Nothing quite give you that lethal shot of adultness as when seeing someone you've known all your life embarking on the next phase of his life.

Don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled for him. But our parents being good friends as well, we've kept in touch through all these time and our relationship went through various changes to the stages of our lives.

And can't help feeling left behind now. JJ is all grown up. Where am I in life?

Felt a touch of envy. Can I ever find that moment of clarity that *this* is the someone I wanna spend the rest of my life with?

JJ says I think way too much that I'm a commitmentphobic. *scrunch up face* I think it hit too close too home he's not the first person to have told me that. Wiseasses!

That loving feeling is also an abstract one. How in the world can you be sure?

JJ says maybe you can never be sure. But sometimes you just grow to care for someone so much you can't imagine life without.

Gosh, he's truly a goner mat jiwang now.

*smiles*

Selamat Pengantin Baru, brader. (ThankGod you wisened up and cut your hair!) Wishing you and wifey all the love and happiness in the world.