SIGH…was panicking that I missed the bus just now, lucky me I didn’t, in fact caught my connecting bus at JE, just as I reached the busstop. Bro dearest picked me up from work yesterday since he was around… Such a luxury to knock off work punctually, and better still, reached home in 15min since the roads were so smooth! So got the same old lecture to get my licence & car… BUT though it can cut down my travelling time by at 1/3, it’d instead also increase my transport expenses many times over, eating up 1/3 of my pay… I value my time, but still, that inverse relation is too much! Bro also remarked about commuting to punggol when Baby comes… *firmly put foot down* N-O, NO! That’s a definite one, license and car I might actually buckle down. Love y’all lots, but I’m NOT going to stay at punggol. Love the place, definitely have more space & less squeezy, but it’s so ULUUUU. Makes no sense. I’m already out so early to get to work on time, what more if I have to travel so far?? At central, travelling to work would be much easier for everyone, what? Anyway, it’s only for a few months, and squeezing a bit for shorter commute to work makes so much more sense.

Reaching home, tempted Bro with éclairs & cream puffs from the bakery downstairs… LOL… then proceeded to shop for baby’s stuff… online… well, scout anyways for prices… Bro & Sis had gone to the warehouse I recommended them over the weekend, and found though they have very good prices for most stuff, not all are the best price. Told them I’d either sponsor the cot or stroller, Bro was trying to cajole me into sponsoring more so that he can pass the stuff to me when I have my kid… LOL…

Also had an interestingly refreshing conversation with my OM yesterday… instead of asking me to quickly get married like most people do, told me I’m smart, I should wait until I’m totally sure, very stable before I venture into married-life… LOL… was taken aback at first because that was so unexpected… LOL… we were actually discussing about the multiplier effect, the vicious cycle of broken homes, and how one cause is the parents were too young/immature/unstable economically… of course we are taking things too generally, but the likelihood is higher… He was saying of course I shouldn’t wait too long, otherwise have to be working forever to still sustain the kids, LOL… was saying how horrified he was calculating how much longer he have to work until his youngest (8yr-ol) is could be financially-independent. But his eldest is around my age, and as all daddies think, that’s still too young… =D

The cases I’ve faced these couple of years working here have made Nat all the more leery about having kids… LOL… sorry, Nat. On my part, yes, it’s made me leery, even horrified at times, how even in the best circumstances, best guidance, things can still go wrong with the kids. So far it hasn’t totally turned me off having kids. Shook my confidence, but, I hope, insyallah, it has made me learn, and take heart and be a good parent. Insyallah, when the time comes.