isn't it so typical that when I'm sure I want something, I don't get it? :-(( i'm so very disappointed in myself... is it really true what a fren once commented that I haven difficulty accepting failures? but isn't that normal?? isn't it abnormal instead to take failures lying down???

was at my fav geek shopping-mall but was only inspired to get one miserable gadget... :/ channeled the retail therapy instead into getting loads of books that I can have an excuse to laugh n cry over... even mummy sensed my mood i guess left me well alone... didn't say anything why i'm just in bed the whole day... lucky daddy not around otherwise he'll be very curious... i dun think i can admit things to him without breaking down!

i'm not forgetting my philosophy abt clouds and silver lining and what's meant to be... but i dun get upset often, i dun feel like crying often... so this once, just leave me well alone to wallow in my misery, k...