Told a friend there’s so many wedding bells a-ringing that my head’s strating to ring too… *ack*… no kidding leh… “when you are getting married� is becoming a popular refrain… it’s making me ratherly royally pissed off… not as much as I take it personally but coz pple dun realise how inconsiderate that seemingly harmless, joking question can be to certain pple and I can’t stand it when pple so close to my heart is hurting and I can’t do a darn thing abt it!!

Maybe I’m being too darn sensitive… maybe some nuances too easily strike a chord in me… but I can’t help if I pick up on certain UN happiness and I sure shldn’t ignore it!

I mean engagement pun is not halfway to happily ever after… in fact pple say engagement can be the most trying time of a relationship, no matter how well, how long u’ve known each other prior to that… engagement can be broken, a very very extremely difficult decision to make… but all things considered might be vital to the rest of your life… one fren was forced to make that decision, and I’m sorry that at that point of time, she felt it too difficult to admit to any of her close friends, I’m sorry we couldn’t be there to support you for what must have beena difficult moment in your life… but I remain in awe of your strength and I’m so so very happy for you that you found someone better suited to share the rest of your life with and I’m glad that I can regard that person as a friend too… congrats to your impending nuptials and your life ahead together… :)

We’ve idly talked before how nice our friendship is, how nice if it can persevere on through marriages, kids and all… but couple-friends friends-couple can also be a strain… I’m NOT complaining, so please dun anyone take heart… I certainly dun mean to aim (or maim) anyone… just a musing that however well u know individuals as friends, they are different idividually as a couple…

Once upon a time, I was a fierce believer in friends are friends… otherwise are otherwise… *laugh* then began to see and grudgingly accept that friends that evolved into something else can be good… I mean as friends you usually get to know each other pretty well no-holds-barred… as compared to as a couple there might be sides of you “tak-glamour� to show another… but even as friends then the shift in the relationship surely cause some tectonics-movement, bring upon situations you never had to face before… and it’s disappointing when a friend you can surely depend on suddenly become someone you feel u dun quite know anymore… :(

But hey… remember what a good friend that person is… so that apple can’t be quite that bad, rites??

*i wish for you (two)... kelancaran dan kemudahan dalam segala yang dirancangkan jika telah disuratkan jodoh bersama… Ya Allah Rabbul 'Alamin… kerana engkau yang memberi cubaan ini… berikan ketabahan, kesabaran, petunjuk dan hidayahmu untuk menghuraikan segala yang menyulitkan... Amin...*

And for those feeling the hot seat burning… dun read too much into what some pple say or do… dun you think that some days, the songs which are playing is just about you, that movie just reflects you… well… they are NOT… so get over it! Hehe… dun be too sensitive… be happy because of you… and dun let others make u miserable… yah it’s nice to sink into depressing songs/movies/books that can just commiserate with how you are feeling… BUT… please dun drown in your sorrows… swim… snorkel… dive… watever… just dun be a dead fish!

Dearests… close-to-my-heart… I’m sorry I’ve been caught up in so so many other stuff that I dun seem to have any time for any of you… but on top of the 24hrs in a day, I’ll surely drop some of my things, just to make time for you…

*HUGZ*