me and cluster colleagues were summoned by supt for a meeting today... and rumours amok that we will be getting some ultra-sound scoldings due to the year-end financial closings especially... was rather nervous... but CC was confident our sch was ok (and we were... phew!)... and our guess of the culprits who made supt mad was accurate too... and that one certain person especially, was "smartly" on leave today... as usual it seems when there's a meeting where he's gonna get special mention... but supt too wasn't too subtle in pointing out who he was mad at... he kept asking for certain pple (who obviously weren't tehre) and muttering how to correct pple when tehy weren't around to listen!

near the end of the meeting, he somehow meandered (rather smoothly actually) abt career progressions and how we shldn't be too discouraged if it seems slow... but that he's still supportive & would understand if some of us would like to try doing something else... but he'd also like to say that it may not be a bed of roses elsewhere too... how in other ministries tehre might be a smaller pool of pple of the same grade, but it'd might be even a more difficult task to get a good standing... OUCH! OUCH! OUCH! ;)

i know he surely would hear abt my application... coz the other ministry would need to put in a request for my details & resume to be forwarded... but didnt expect that he'll hint-hint nudge-nudge... but in his coyness, i can tell he was referring to me (i'm not being sensitive... really! these 2.5yrs have made me learned how he acts) ... and he knows i can tell too... :]

more butterflies seems to be springing up in my stomach... actually on sunday bought a new shirt which i might wear for my interview... though i haven't asked P whether she would let me go... asked her this morning... and she said...

I'll miss u, but if that's good for you, then I'm happy for you...

don't u think my boss is such a darling??? she makes me feel a bit bad... like i'm betraying her... cause i'm not considering other alternatives because i dun like working with her... i adore her... i enjoy wkg with my sch & cluster colleagues... in the environment though it can be challenging at times... i dun have any major complaints... i just would like to explore other alternatives... even if THEY say they would like to have me, I would still have to do some major thinking, it's not a done deal...

CC as usual is treating it rather lightly... he sure knows how NOT to stress me out... i haven't talked it over with H again apart from asking her opinion that first time i got the letter... i wouldn't want to risk hurting her, or making her feel depressed abt her job... NZ's been very supportive... very optimistic... i just wish thursday would come quickly forme to get it over & done with!